January 5, 2016

What A Start To The New Year

What Mandy Thinks: Real Person Chronicles post via www.whatmandythinks.com
If my newly-2015-self, who just went through a lethargic New Year's to send off 2014, was told my next New Year's would be exponentially better for 2016 - and the way it was better was because of a BOY - 2015 Mandy would laugh you out of the conversation then secretly sign up for online dating again because WHAT IF IT'S TRUE?

2016 is starting off strangely wonderful, and I didn't see it coming.  I'm the most oblivious person I know excluding my family members (genetics are strong), so the position I'm in now is foreign territory; scary, exciting, new, fast, mushy, and the best thing that's happened to me in the past year if not the last few.

Ok, I'll cut to the chase: I've started dating one of my best friends!  And if you can guess who it is already, you knew more than I did back then.  I was just trying to be a good friend who wanted to also use the friendly "social situations" (now known as the "practice dates") as an excuse to make myself feel better over the anxious year that kept getting worse and self destructive.  Long story short: I swooped in to help heal an unfortunate situation without realizing I was healing us both.  We're so much better as a duo than we ever were being two separated introverts flanking the more extroverted friend group with social awkwardness and unintentional quiet moments.

Did we ever spend any alone time together to realize this?  In the EIGHT years that we've known each other?  Pff, of course not.  Why would we find this happiness so easily?  (Do you sense the sarcasm?  Ugh.)

2015 was hectic, overwhelming, and should have been so much easier if I wasn't so hard on myself.  He wasn't having the best year ever either to be nice and vague.  Now we're figuring things out and trying not to "blow up."  By this I mean our current happiness has a lot of risk involved but a worthy reward.

P.S: The new year is the greatest excuse to reflect on all the craziness in life and filter through it to be a better self.  Part of my filtering for this year is pairing down my blog schedule for What Mandy Thinks from a handful of posts a month down to at least one.  My value focus is off the screen more lately - ahem, you can now understand partly why after reading this post - so I'm making it easier on myself to not stress over blogging.  Don't hate me because I'm starting to get a life for once haha!  See ya next month. :)

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